Fear and Loathing in Lel Vegas

It's late November 2024. Your birthday has passed once again and even now at 19 years old I'm still blocked from making contact with you. As your mother, Rachel, shows signs of fear as she continues to evade and avoid dealing with the issue, I've decided it's time for us to analyse what's really going on.

What's the real situation here - Anger? Fear? Avoidance?

It's important to fully understand what the driving force is behind what's making Rachels decisions.

From my perspective, I think she's scared. This behaviour is always the sign of someone that will do anything to stop their boat being rocked.

And I guess that's fair in a way. I mean none of us really enjoy something coming along and upsetting our Applecart do we? But does it go deeper than that. When Rachel's involved, it often does.

We need to look at how she structures her world. In my experience it was an intricate web of lies used to create a persona that she used to get everything she wanted. And there's one thing a liar hates - someone that has figured out their lies and tells everyone the truth.

It can't be Anger, can it?

Surely it can't be that she's angry towards me. Not Rachel M? She's far too superior and pompous to lower herself to allowing the feeling of anger to cloud her judgement.

So what could she have to be angry about?

She got you all to herself for 19 years. She got to see you grow up and become the person you are today.

I got... nothing.

It's not like I've won any part of this war, and people only tend to be angry when someone else has gotten the better of them. If anyone is going to be angry, it should be me, but I'm not that kind of person.

I don't see any point in carrying the weight of anger for all these years. I'm more of a "don't get mad, get even" kind of person.

Is it Fear? I don't understand that either

Fear makes slightly more sense than anger. But we need to ask why would the great and mighty Rachel be in fear of me at all? I've never done anything that would give her any reason to fear anything about me.

I was talking to a customer this week about our situation, and he said something absolutely mind-blowing to me.

He pointed out that narcissists like your mother absolutely fear anyone like me who risks their world falling apart once their lies are uncovered. And I can understand that.

Her narcissistic ego tells her that she's too amazing to fear anything, but the common sense part of her brain also warns her that after 19 years of fighting for the truth she's realised "this dude isn't giving up, ever!"

The reality of the matter is when it comes to the idea of giving either person a reason to be fearful, it's most definitely your mother giving me reason to fear your family, after she stated that your uncle Chris intended to "break my legs" back in 2005.

What exactly breaking my legs was going to achieve, I really don't know. My legs had nothing to do with what happened. In fact it was more about your mothers inability to keep hers together in the presence of other men.

But I guess that's the level of intelligence we have to work with at times.

Or it simply just Avoidance?

There are probably other forms of emotion that we can use to explain why your mother won't open the communication channels between you and I, but I can't think of any right now. We'd have to ask her really.

Avoidance is the most likely. When it comes to applying Occam's Razor, the theory that the simplest and most obvious conclusion is almost always the correct one, then I would choose avoidance.

She just wants to ignore me until such time as I give up, or that somehow you never find out as long as you live. If she doesn't acknowledge that I exist, then in her head, I don't. Out of sight, out of mind.

I've already made plans though to ensure that won't happen. One way or another, I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure you know the truth... or the truth as I was made to understand it.

You can make the next step. Why not join the new group 'Finding Oliver - Lel, Pinoso - Spain' we've created on Facebook?

Hey you know what, wasn't "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas" a Johnny Depp movie? What a coincidence.